Hello !!
I am a child
with ADHD and I can call myself Pablo, Juan, Angel, José, Andrea, Luis, Mia. My
name does not matter.
I am a normal
looking child with normal intelligence and yet I have problems.
If you allow me,
I would like to lend you my shoes so that, for a moment, walk with them and
feel the same as I feel.
To my doubts as
a child: who I am, what I want, where I go, the anguish and the uneasiness of
not understanding why I am as I am.
I've spent a lot of time thinking (actually, I've been
made to think) that I'm vague, bad person, dumb and even worse; Believing that
my parents do not love me like my other siblings because I'm all those things
and feeling that my teachers hate me for the same. I wonder, why still
striving, I am not able to get the same as the others. I know it does not look
like it, but I work hard, even if the results are not very satisfactory.
I feel so
disappointed that sometimes I have even thought that nothing is worth it. When
my parents at home, desperate because I am not able to finish the tasks or it
seems that I hesitate or I have everything made a mess, they quarrel and punish
me, I cry. I cry for myself and I cry for them.
When my teachers,
also desperate because I do not carry all the books, or do not copy all the
duties or interrupt the class, they quarrel and punish me, I cry. I cry for
myself and I cry for them.
When in the park
or in the schoolyard I am separated from the groups of games; When they do not
take me on a trip with the rest of my companions; When I hear comments about me
as if I were not; When my mama hears them and I look at her face, I cry.
So I grow, hurt
inside, angry with the world. Feeling the same disappointment, the same boredom
and feeling of failure that those around me feel, feeling that I am nothing,
that I am worthless. I did not like it very much.
Living with me
is hard. I know because I am with me 24 hours a day, every day, without
understanding why I am so and why, sometimes, I do what I do although I do not
want to do it. I try to apologize, but without success, because the apology
ends in an uncontrollable cry, an unbearable tantrum or a few sentences with
little sense.
How lonely!
However, I am not bad, not stupid, not vague, not
scoundrel. I have been told that I have ADHD and that helps me to know myself
better, to love me a little more, because now I know what happens to me. I'm
just different, and that gives me hope.
I understand that
there are worse situations than mine, that I am not the only one who has needs
but I have them and I would like to express my apologies and thanks.
But first, I'd
like to start by asking you for the things I think I need.
To my family. May
I accept what I have. Let them be aware that their effort as potatoes will be
greater than that of other potatoes. Learn what ADHD is. Seek information and
support. Please do not understand my disorder as a safe-conduct to justify all
my attitudes, so do not help me.
To my teachers. To
accompany me in the difficult task of learning and to facilitate it, because I
want to learn, only that sometimes I can not. I do not ask you to be soft, I
just ask you to be fair with my characteristics.
To my parents and
teachers. Make them a team. Do not judge one another and least of all in my
presence. Do not send me conflicting messages because then I will not know the
way.
To the educational
system. That I provide my teachers with the necessary resources for my training
and establish a protocol of attention to my needs so that they know what and
how to do when they find me in their classes. If they do not set common
guidelines, whoever my teacher is, whatever my course, my academic life can
become a roller coaster and I will have many chances of failure.
To the health
system. Make it serious in your diagnostic criteria and you do not have to go
from consultation to consultation to know what happens to me. That I become
aware of the economic cost to my family of medication and provide me with a
good psychotherapeutic attention in which I learn to manage my traits. I do not
want to take pills because yes. When my diagnosis is good and clear, it
prevents others from questioning it and makes it easier for us all to know what
we can do.
To the society in
general. That is informed and sensitized. If you judge me, if you judge my
family from ignorance, you isolate us. To all in general. I just ask that you
give me a chance.
And now the
apologies to my parents and brothers for having been the cause of so many
headaches.
Now I know that I
have always been loved even though I have not been an easy child, but I am
learning to be. I try with all my strength and I love you very much.
For the potatoes
of my companions, friends to my family in general, uncles, cousins, brothers,
if I ever did something that would hurt them or hurt me wholeheartedly, because
sometimes I do not think what I do and I hurt others with my courage , Anger
and my impulses.
To my teachers for
making them feel that I was challenging them; Which made them appear in front
of the whole class. I am trying to be a better student, I try with all my
strength and respect them because now I understand that what you teach me today
depends on my tomorrow. I may not always get it but I will not stop trying.
And my sincere thanks:
Those who still do
not understand it try it and those who try it and can not. To those who strive
to teach me in the way I am able to learn.
To all researchers
who care about knowing more and better what happens to me.
To associations
working on behalf of people with ADHD. To the institutions that, despite the
crisis and the budget cuts, keep a little bit for me.
To all those who
still doubt me disorder, those who hide behind the system, those who reject me
because I am a burden, those who do not let me be their friend because I am
annoying. To all of you thank you, because I hope that your look will be
broader, more comprehensive and from today you will be there when you need them
...
Millions of thanks
to my family and friends, who have learned to teach me, correct me and love me
as I am. I appreciate your presence, have listened to my words, and have
allowed me to show myself inside.
Today there are
many people who help me overcome my ADHD, they are with me and I am glad of
your company, because today, with you, I feel less alone.
And now, please,
give me back my shoes.
NOW AFTER YOU HAVE READ THIS DINOS YOU THINK?
